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Today’s Random Thoughts

July 14, 2011 2 comments

Today’s post will be some of my random thoughts and happenings…

– My allergies are killing me this morning. Does one built up a tolerance or immunity to the dose of an allergy pill? Mine do not seem to make much of a dent anymore.  I managed to sneeze myself into a headache, this morning. I bet I sneezed 10 times in a row. Now, I have the drippy nose. So annoying! When will the allergies go away? Usually I have Spring allergies from late February through mid-June. This year is so different. I am still suffering. It’s mid-July. I’m just tired of it, over it.

– I received another letter from Taelor, yesterday. She is doing well in South Carolina. She actually likes boot camp. What, is she nuts? I swear she is not my child. I am glad she is doing well and enjoying all of the physical activity. She misses some foods. She made a list of all the foods she wants to eat when she gets home in early September. Burgers and fries were on the top of the list. I reckon I can swing that.

– I have a sweet and understanding Husband. I’m lucky. Last night, we were both sitting on the couch, immersed in our laptops. Hubby asks me, “Hey, do you like this color?” It was a golden yellow color of YARN. I said yes. What’s not to love? He didn’t mention it again. I did not think too much of it after that. This morning, in a text, Hubby said that my yarn should arrive here, by early next week. Ummm…what yarn, I had to ask. I was confused and had already forgotten. So, Hubby ordered some yarn for me. Isn’t that the sweetest? My guess, it is a belated birthday present.

– Today is an anniversary of sorts. Not necessarily a happy one, but I do observe it yearly. Today, 17 years ago I was diagnosed as a Type 1 Diabetic. I had just turned 20. My doctors, at the time, were baffled on why I ended up with “juvenile diabetes” at that age. No one could figure it out. I have no family history. Relatively healthy and I weighed 125 lbs at the time. I got sick quite suddenly. I just felt awful one day…thought I had a flu-type thing going on. It progressed to other symptoms and I ended up in the ER. At the time, I did not know much of anything about diabetes. I had heard of it, in passing. So, I had to learn everything. Injecting myself with insulin was the worst thing ever, at first. Not being able to eat what I wanted, when I wanted was second worst. Low blood sugar episodes are also awful. 17 years later…I have managed to live with the disease, for the most part. I still dislike it. It disrupts my life. I still resent things about it, etc. I now have other health issues that are directly related to my diabetes. I have my good days and my bad days.

– Recently my 15 year old daughter has asked me about birth control. I am SO not ready to deal with this whole idea. She promised me that she is not having sex yet. She was just discussing with me the whole idea of protecting herself for when she does want to. I want to hold my hand over my ears and repeat, “No, no, no!” I had better get with the program. She will eventually “do it” whether I agree with it or not. I have always been open about sex with my daughters. We discuss it, talk about what could happen, how to protect oneself, etc. I don’t wish for my daughters to end up as a teen pregnancy statistic, like I did. I have no regrets about having Taelor at age 17. I want my girls to have choices that I did not have, is all. Did I mention…I am not ready for this, with my youngest daughter?

– Knitting. Well, I have taken to knitting on personal projects in the evenings now. I sleep much better, thank you. I had issues with turning my brain off at night. I would obsess over design ideas or mistakes instead of sleeping. I now save the designing and sample knitting for the mornings. I like this schedule much better. I am hoping to get more done this way. More productive, maybe? We shall see…

– Lately, a kitty has been visiting me. He’s been around for several years. Sometimes I won’t see him for months and then he just pops in. He sits on my back patio and stares at me through the glass door. Often he will tap the glass to get my attention. He wants me to come outside and pet him. A few times, the cat even trots into my apartment and partakes in my cats food dish. He is extremely friendly and sweet. I know he belongs to someone around here. He wears a collar and his tag says his name is “Elvis.” This makes me giggle. He does not seem like an Elvis. He is a beautiful brown, multi-colors of browns/black Maine Coon. He is large and a fluff ball. I want to take him in and keep him all to myself. He is also “fixed” which is a good thing. Elvis has visited me twice in the past week. He likes my scratches, I guess. When he left…I told Hannah, the youngest, “Elvis has left the building!” We had some laughs over that.

– What is up with the weather in the Pacific NW right now. Clouds, rain and cool. We have yet to reach 90 degrees this Summer. I suppose I shouldn’t complain about that, because I HATE the heat. It’s been in the 60’s mostly here the past week. We did reach 71 yesterday afternoon…and humid. It even rained for a short time. Summer is usually our dry season…and it will not rain until September, sometimes. Just an odd year all around, for the weather. I am guessing this is why my allergies are all wonky too.

Well, that is all I have in my head for this morning. I have some work to do. House cleaning stuff first. Then some design knitting. Is it the weekend yet?

Categories: cats, general, motherhood, randoms

The Knits I Can Show

July 7, 2011 2 comments

It is all dark and cloudy this afternoon. It’s been this way all day. I think I saw the sun for about 5 minutes, as it came up over the building, around 7 am. I guess I am alright with the clouds for a change of pace. It was pretty warm the past two days and having a cool day to recover is sort of nice. The cats are enjoying the cooler day too. They are more active. Phinn has been playing and chasing Phoebe around all afternoon. She’s an old biddy and cranky about it, but Phinn is sure having his fun.

Look at that bratty face. He was evil-eyeing Phoebe as I took the photo. You can’t see the twitchy tail. Two seconds after i snapped the photo, he jumped off the couch and went tearing after poor Phoebe. Meh, it keeps her young, right?

Yes, my Vlad Shawl is certainly coming along. I have about 10 rows of the edging chart to knit before I am finished. Done, done, done! The shawl pattern is not as hard as I thought it would be. The shawl looks really intricate and fancy, after blocking. I found it kind of easy to work. This will be my first completed intricate triangular lace shawl ever. I’ve been knitting for over 7 years and it’s about time, right?

I may have to make this shawl again…probably bigger and in a different color, of course. I am anxious to see how much my red Vlad will grow with blocking. I won’t share my blocking process, since it is most embarrassing. My method does work, though. Let’s just say, I need to purchase a blocking board and pins some time soon, if I continue with the lace knitting.

I have also been knitting, slowly and randomly on the Oaklet Shawl. I work on it, while watching TV or listening to my iPod. Right now, it is mostly mindless stockinette. The colors in the yarn are a bit bright and wacky. I do love the bit of sparkle the yarn has going on. I am hoping to wear this one as a triangular neck scarf, more than an actual shawl. This photo of the shawl is not a very good one, since it is all scrunched up on the needle. My size 5 circular needle is currently occupied with a project. So, Oaklet is being knitted on flat needles until such a time that I can transfer it to the circular needle.

I think when these two shawls are completed…I am going to cast on a project that uses at least US # 8 size needles. Maybe even US # 10 needles. I need something quick and larger to work on. This tiny needle and finer yarn project obsession I have going on…is getting a bit crazy. I am considering a cardigan. I always need a cute cardigan to wear. Any suggestions? I’ll look at patterns later.

I’m also knitting on some designs. Three to be exact. I can’t really share them right now. It drives me crazy not to be able to discuss them. I spend more time working on the designs, then all of the above shared shawl business. ~sigh~ I keep telling myself, “Soon. Soon, I can share.” I am also thinking of opening an Etsy Shop to sell a bit of my hand knits. Not sure just yet. I’m always up for making a bit of extra money. I have a huge plastic zip-up bag with tons of over flow hand knits. Hats I have made over the years, mostly samples of my designs. I never wear them. I just put them in the bag, zip it up and put it up in the top of my closet. I only wear a select few knitted hats. Maybe a handful. I would not sell those…just the ones sitting in the bag. I don’t know? Do people really buy hand knitted items from etsy? Just a thought…

My youngest daughter, Hannah, and her friends love to take artsy photos, lately. They go to the park and break out the camera for the afternoon. They are pretty good at it, if I do say so. Not bad for a few 15 year olds. I love the colors in this picture.

I use Hannah as my model for some of my knit designs. Any excuse to put on make up and primp for a 15 year old…is the thing. I am sure to use Han in my upcoming designs. I already warned her to be ready and cooperative.

And that is all I have to share for today. I am going to make myself a home-made iced coffee and watch the evening news for a bit. Then it is off to cook dinner for the family, cleaning a bit. I also need to work on some knitting…I probably won’t get to bed before 1 am. Oh well. Have a great evening, everyone.

Categories: cats, general, knitting, motherhood, WIPs

Holiday Stuff

It’s been mostly a lazy sort of holiday weekend. Hubby and I have been hanging out at home. We aren’t going downtown for the 4th of July, this year. I really wanted to attend the local Blues Festival too. Oh well, there is always next year.

The weather is perfect. Low 80’s and sunshine. Not too hot and not chilly. Just perfect. I have no complaints.

Yesterday evening I had a wild hair to go a-baking. I went into the kitchen with one of my cookbooks and decided to make Jelly Rolls. It’s pretty much a thin sponge-type cake with jelly inside. I used the jelly I had on hand, in the fridge. It’s boysenberry. One of my favorites. The little Jelly Rolls turned out really well. They appear harder to make than they really are. The family likes them too.

I want to wish everyone a Happy 4th of July! 😀


So…this next photo is of my daughter sitting on our front porch. That is our front door. She has some strange friends. I guess toilet papering someone’s home is out these days? Let’s tape drawing and random quotes all over the front door! Hannah’s two friends were bored and made these drawings, mostly of cats, and put them on our door. They thought they were being funny. Several of the neighbors came over to read the notes, wondering what was going on. The friends took this photo and then Hannah took them down, quick-like. It was pretty funny. The photo makes me giggle.

Hannah is like, “WTF?”

Hubby went to take out the trash, this morning, and there is silly string ALL over our front porch. WHY? This time it wasn’t one of Hannah’s little friends. It was one of our 11 year old neighbor boys. He did it a second time, and we saw him do it. What is it about my front door/porch that says, make a mess this weekend? Some people have WAY too much time on their hands.

I am off to clean the back patio…scrub the chairs and bench. I am planting my butt out on the patio to knit, later. I’m enjoying the really nice weather while it lasts. Toodles for now!

Categories: domestic, general, motherhood

Knitting With Little Progress

Seriously, I have been knitting quite a lot lately. I spent most of yesterday evening…knitting. I worked on three separate projects. Well, not at the same time.  If only…Then I could get more done.

In this photo…I am working on my lace shawl, the Birch Leaf Shawl. I worked one total repeat, 8 rows while watching Nova on PBS, last night. Yeah, I’m a nerd. I’m knitting this shawl on US # 3 needles. It makes for some really slow progress. My shawl never seems any bigger. ~sigh~

I have two other projects on really small needles. A pair of socks on US # 1 double pointed needles and a hat on US # 2 needles. I am not sure if I am going through a teeny needle phase , or what? I need to knit faster, maybe? I have done all of this knitting and have little progress to show for it.

Ahhh, you can see my favorite pajama pants, in the photo. My pink “peace & love” jammies. There are black peace signs all over it with random “l-o-v-e” written in light blue. I love these pants. I could live in them all the time. I don’t, but I could. 😀

Notice my pale-ness. I need to get out in the sun a bit. IF ONLY the weather would cooperate. I am desperate for Summer and the skies are gray, rainy and it’s downright chilly. I actually wore a hoodie around the apartment, this morning. I was cold and I’ll be damned if I am turning the heater on. It’s June, folks. Crazy weather this year. I am getting the feeling that this Summer is going to be a lot like last year. We didn’t have much of a Summer at all. It was quick and cooler than normal. I hope that I’m wrong. Really, I do.

Oh, I received a letter from Taelor, yesterday afternoon. The oldest daughter seems to be fine and surviving boot camp well, in South Carolina. I worried about the heat and humidity, for her. She would not be used to that type of thing, being from PDX. I also got notification that she graduates from boot camp on September 2nd. I sat down and wrote her a letter too. Now that I have her address. I plan to get into the habit of writing her 2 letter per week, or so. Gah, I miss Tae, terribly. I won’t whine about it…promise.

Yesterday was the last day of school for Portland Public Schools. This means the youngest teen, Hannah, is out of school for the Summer. She will be home driving me nuts and complaining about how bored she is. We are having a movie day, today. We are going to eat popcorn and watch a movie on Netflix. This will be my knitting time later today, I think. Watch a movie and knit. Sounds like a plan.

Is it just me, or is this week flying by? It’s already Thursday. Hmmmm…during the Summer months I tend to loose track of the days. I hope you are enjoying your day, wherever you are. Until tomorrow…


Categories: general, knitting, motherhood

Sort Of All Over The Place

It’s been a weird week for me. I’m sort of all over the place, trying to keep myself busy. If I am busy, I have less time to think. The less I think, the less I want to get all teary-eyed. I’m trying to adjust to life without my oldest daughter around. I miss her terribly. I know as time passes it will get easier. It’s only been four days since she left. I also worry about Taelor. She’s in boot camp and we have limited contact with each other. I won’t hear from her until she actually writes me a letter. This is a real change for me. Usually I hear from Tae several times a day, via phone call or text. So, not hearing anything at all about how she is faring at boot camp is killing me. I keep telling myself, “I’m sure she’s fine!” The US Marines will be good for her. I will not cry. I simply refuse.

So, moving on…the youngest daughter, Hannah, is busy with last minute school stuff, before the end of the year coming up. It’s finals this week and two days of next week. There has been quite a bit of studying going on. Hannah has pretty much completed her freshman year of high school. She received an award recently for being on the honor roll. 🙂 I have also seen some of her class schedule for next year. There are a few classes that we are waiting to hear from, due to availability. For example, Hannah wants to work on the school newspaper. That would be one of her electives. We have to wait and see if the class is full or not. We won’t find out until late August, probably. Classes we do know…US History, Chemistry, and Algebra 2. Hannah also is entering two honor classes (advanced) next year. She had letters of recommendation, from her teachers, for Honors English and Honors French 5 & 6. Taelor speaks German and French. Hannah focuses only on French. My daughters have always excelled at languages, as did I, back in the day. Lastly, Hannah and I are in discussions on whether or not she can join her high school’s dance team next year. I’m stuck on the price of participating…roughly it would cost me about $1000. I’m just not sure yet. There’s dance camp, uniforms, practices, etc.

The weather is finally beginning to cooperate with the season. It’s not summer-like just yet, but Spring. I’ll take it! I am so sick of the chilly, rainy, gray weather. It’s in the upper 60’s to mid-70’s this week. The sun is shining too. I have no complaints. Perfect temperatures and partly cloudy. I’ve been sleeping with my bedroom window open. Not good for my allergies, but it keeps the room comfortable.

The Rose Festival is in it’s last week. This week is known as Fleet Week. All of the Navy, Coast Guard and Canadian Maritime ships dock in downtown Portland. Yum. Men in uniform. Yes, I am married, but I can still look, right? I am heading downtown this weekend to check out the awesome ships and cute boys. Hopefully the weather will cooperate. I will try to get decent photos…

What else?

I’m still knitting…on many projects. The one that just does not seem to show much progress is the Birch Leaf Shawl. I swear, I knit on it as often as possible. Usually one pattern repeat (8 rows) per sitting. The shawl collects more and more stitches, which in turn makes slower time for each row. Plus, the shawl stitches look scrunched. Once I block the finished shawl, the lace will open up. Until then…it’s slow going. It may take me all summer to finish this shawl, but I am determined. Determined, I tell ya.

So, that’s about all I have to share for this morning. I better get busy knitting some more. I also have some cleaning chores to do today. I am off to begin all of the stuff that fills my day. I may fit in a nap too. 🙂

Categories: general, knitting, me, motherhood

A Hectic Few Days

It’s been a really hectic few days around here. I have been a bad blogger too. My excuse? I haven’t been online all that much since late last week. My oldest daughter, Taelor, is leaving for boot camp. So, we spent the weekend cleaning out her stuff and packing. I literally spent all day, yesterday, cleaning. We switched bedrooms too. The youngest is technically an only child now…and wanted the smaller bedroom to herself. Hubby and I are back in the larger room. 🙂 YAY! A bigger bedroom in which to breathe in. The only bad thing about the bigger room…the smaller closet. I have downsized my clothes a lot to accommodate that. Once I hang the pictures and pretty things up. I will take bedroom pic, to share.

So, I am all sad today. 😦 We said good bye to Taelor this afternoon. She officially ships out to boot camp tomorrow. I won’t see her until sometime in September. She will then have 10 days at home. After that she will be in more schooling, etc. She doesn’t live at home anymore and this makes me a little sad. My baby has flown the coop. I will probably be sad for a few days…need time to adjust. I’m nervous, excited for her too. I’m all hormonal and emotional right now. I’m a mess in a dress, I tell ya…

I will write more tomorrow, I think. Right now, I want to have some coffee and a moment to relax. I may crochet a bit before dinner too. I hope your weekend has been a good one. Until tomorrow.

Categories: general, motherhood

A Lot To Process

This week is not looking like my normal routine. It’s all wonky. First, Monday is a holiday and it throws my week off by a day. I’m alright with that. Not complaining.  Hubby took two vacation days from work, today and tomorrow. It was one of those, use your vacation time or loose it, deals. So, he is off from work until Monday. A nice 4 day weekend… This makes my home routine a bit weird. I won’t be online as much, probably. Knitting will be to a minimum. You know?

Everyone in the country is talking about their lovely sweltering, hot, summer-like weather this week. Not here, people. Portland has been chilly, raining and the endless gray. It feels like freaking March around here. I’m tired of it. I enjoy the rain. After all, I do live in the Pacific Northwest, but the weather is bordering on ridiculous.

This photo was taken on the street I live on. Wet and gray…

THIS WEEKEND the weather is supposed to be nice. I am excited for this. The forecast is sunshine and between 80-85. Just to give you a clue on how disgustingly excited I am…It has yet to reach 75 degrees here in Portland this year. OMG, I can wear my new summer dress that I purchased weeks ago. Finally!

Plans for the weekend. I am not entirely sure what we will be doing over the entire weekend. Hubby and I are seriously considering attending the Starlight Parade, downtown on Saturday. It’s part of the Rose Festival celebrations. I’ve never seen the Starlight Parade live. So, it seemed like the thing to see this weekend. I will be bringing my camera with me, of course. AND the weather will be cooperative. No rain!

As far as my “a lot to process” title of this entry…Well, my oldest daughter has joined the US Marines. I have discussed this on my old blog a little bit before. Since joining the Marines…She has been in sort of a holding pattern, waiting for an opening to ship out to boot camp. The opening has finally presented itself. It was way sooner that we all thought it would be. We found out YESTERDAY that Taelor is leaving for South Carolina on Monday, June, 6th. That is only a few days from now. It’s a lot of process for me. I’m excited for her and a bit scared. Tae has never been away from home, aside from spending a few weeks over the summer with her best friend, up in Washington. She is more than ready physically, but mentally? I don’t think she is overly nervous about boot camp. I’m more than freaked out for the both of us. I could barely sleep last night…I know that Taelor will be fine. It’s just…my baby is leaving me. 🙂 It will be an adjustment to only have one child living at home. Four more years and then the youngest will be going off to college. Imagine my neurosis when I have an empty nest…finally. LOL!

Lastly, I leave you will a bit of cuteness. Phinnegan fell asleep, this morning, next to my knitting basket. He is such a boy. He can fall asleep anywhere. It’s the same for Hubby. He can sleep most anywhere.

Enough rambling for this morning. I have a few home chores to do. Damn dishes sitting in the sink. I am not sure what the rest of my day holds. Just trying to keep busy. Less time to think. Have a great day, everyone.

Categories: cats, general, motherhood
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